Working Life

No one gets paid to sleep, unfortunately. It seems like that is all I want to do these days. Amid the many stressful circumstances in my life right now, sitting in a cubicle bored to tears all day does not help. I am grateful to have a job, and the benefits are good. Still, I’d be lying if I said I felt stimulated in any way or got a sense of satisfaction from my job. Honestly, I hate it.

I know this job should be enough for me, but it leaves me with hours on top of hours of time to sit here worrying, stressing, and ruminating over all my troubles as I “work” in auto pilot. Medical billing can be challenging and certainly complicated for someone new to it. I, however, have doing this since high school. The work has become mindless.

So I try to think about what I would want to do that would lead to a job I would actually want, and I have no clue. I have a degree in English Literature with which I have done nothing. I thought becoming a personal trainer might be for me, but the same night I passed my certification test, I found out I was pregnant. Personal training has lost some of it’s lure for me. So lately I have been thinking about teaching yoga and/or being integrative health and nutrition coach. Unfortunately again, I am not in any position to pursue this financially, and my “free” time is almost non-existent.

So, I am trapped for now. I have to focus on more immediate concerns like getting through this divorce, finding a new place to live, filing for bankruptcy, and taking care of myself through it all. Hopefully soon, though, I will be able to seek out a new career path that is fulfilling.

2 thoughts on “Working Life

  1. Has becoming a teacher ever interested you? That would definitely keep you busy. With your degree in English Lit, it would seem that maybe it wouldn’t be too difficult to get your accreditation for that. Or, if writing interests you, start writing a book and then go through the process of having it published.

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    1. Thank you for the suggestions. Both are viable options. Getting accredited for teaching wouldn’t take much more than a handful of classes.

      For myself, writing a book is easier said than done. I like to write for myself, but writing a book that is marketable has to provide something that the reader wants. That’s where I get torn. It’s hard to be passionate about writing something I may have little interest in.

      As always, thanks for the comment!

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